Illness requires us to let go of a lot of things. I sometimes think it’s a spiritual quest toward non-attachment. Priorities become clearer as we need to clear our plates to allow for healing. I had to let go of two things today. I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow where…
I am now in kidney failure. I found out last Thursday, the same day Chronic Resilience was officially released. Life is wonderfully ironic. It is weird to type that word. Failure. It doesn’t feel like failure; it feels like my kidney worked really hard for more than 34 years and…
I was originally going to call this post, “Find Your Own Miracle.” But then I sat dumbfounded staring at the screen trying to figure out exactly what I meant. My health, at this point, is not trending toward the miraculous. It is headed for the predicted. In my case that…
Phillip and I met with the transplant nephrologist (kidney specialist) on Monday afternoon. We came armed with a huge list of questions. I haven’t been to the transplant center as a patient since my evaluation back in the summer of 2011. This meeting was to re-establish care and get informed…
At 8pm last night, the tears came. Of course they would come. Phillip was there. He sat close. Stayed quiet. He let me cry. I wiped my tears with my wrinkled dinner napkin and stared off into space. I choked out how weird it is to feel relatively healthy and…